Just a Tumbleweed

I suppose being new to this whole blogging thing I should let you know where I am in life so that my other blogs will have some sort of anchor and you'll know a little bit from where I'm coming from. Just know first of all, that I absolutely hate your typical go to questions when you first meet someone, especially when you're in college. You know which ones I'm talking about too. Name, age, where are you from, what's your major. I personally am not in college, but I used to be apart of this campus ministry and we always had this beginning of the year BBQ where you're supposed to introduce yourself to new people and seem interested in them so that they'll keep coming around. For the past three years it has been one of my favorite events, just because I would sit back and watch all of the awkward first meetings and conversations. You see someone approach the awkward loner and you think, O that's nice of them, but the conversation quickly dies down after the rapid fire of those four questions. Its both hilarious and sad to watch. I don't understand why it's so hard for people to think of other questions to ask. It doesn't matter how random they are. For goodness sakes you just met them. What's the worst that could happen, they think you're a freak show? So, what. We all are. Everybody has that one thing. I suppose I personally have more than one and I will be the first to admit it and everyone close to me will be literally on my heels.


With that being said, my name is Eden. I'm twenty-two years old. I'm from Republic, MO and didn't go far from home... yet. I'm not in school, hence the tumbleweed. I used to, like every other teenager/young adult, think that I knew exactly who I was and what I wanted to be. All I know now is that I want to enjoy my life, and school right now doesn't fit in to that equation for me. You can imagine the kind of reaction that got. I tried school, multiple times, however it never seemed to stick. It's weird because everyone always says that college is where you go to discover who you really are and all it did for me was help me to discover who I'm not and what I don't want.


Now that we have all of the surface level stuff out of the way, let's get down to business...to defeat the Huns! Something you all should know before we get too far into this is that I have a severe case of self-diagnosed ADD.  For example, the first line of this paragraph.  I immediately started thinking of Mulan and the song (Someday) I'll Make a Man Out of You.  I'm going to go ahead and apologize for all of my random tendencies, but without them I wouldn't keep you reeled in and this would be ten times as boring as it probably already is.  ANYWAY, right now in life I am discovering what it means to be and everything that comes with that.  I am questioning any and everything.  I have fallen in love twice and out once.  I'm working on what it means to let go of someone who still has a part of you. I'm also learning how to put yourself back together in a way where you can function fully without that missing piece.


This blog is about my journey through all of this. Highs, lows, random side thoughts. The whole thing.