The Scars are Still Here.

By now if you've read most of my blogs you are aware of how off the path of my journey I traveled before I started to find my way back.  Once I found my way back I began to see all of these blessings in my life that I felt dumb for not seeing before and then also some new blessings in my life that I know I would be nowhere near where I am today without.  However, when I started finding my way back to where I was supposed to be I figured that because I didn't feel the hurt or pain anymore that I was healed and that was it.  But here lately God has a new lesson for me to learn.  You can't just pretend none of that gut-wrenching heartbreaking agonizing pain that made you go a little mad didn't happen.  It happened alright and just because you're healed doesn't mean it didn't leave scars.  A person cannot go through pain so utterly life changing without it leaving it's mark on you.  Our job is to recognize that and adapt to it in a way that it won't rule our lives.  It can change it and it should, but it shouldn't rule you.  It's a fine line I'm finding out slowly but surely, and I am so incredibly blessed and thankful to have such an amazing person in my life who doesn't see this as a burden to deal with but something for us to overcome together. 


Everyday I am reminded of how amazing people can be.  God keeps restoring my faith in people in every aspect of my life which only makes me want to be that person for other people more and more every day.  That person who, when all other light is out and their faith in people is shot, that comes in at the last second and lets them know that not everyone is like that.  All it takes is one person to show a little bit of light to keep your path lit.  God is so amazing and complex and at the same time so utterly simple.  Love.


Have a blessed day!!