This is the Golden Age of Something Good and Right and Real

So, it is officially a day away from being November again.  I cannot believe how fast this year went by.  Honestly I feel like I say that almost every year, but it just feels like this year compared to last has flown by at supersonic speeds.  I know it's probably because this year has been the best year of my life by far.  So much has happened, people have left, new people have come into my life, I've moved further away from home than I've ever been and I'm about to move again and some people have shown their true colors good or bad, but their true selves nevertheless.  I've learned a lot.  But most of the credit goes to my other half.  He has been there every step of the way to hold me when I cry, to make me laugh when I'm taking everything WAY too seriously, to listen when I talk and or yell.  He is absolutely perfect for me in every way.

As you all know I am a huge Taylor Swift fan.  Her new album RED was released earlier this month and surprise surprise it's better than the last.  She has really learned to evolve each album and just when you think she can't get any better she laughs in your face with this! I love it! Anyway there's a song on her new album called, State of Grace.  Perfectly describes what my life is now, especially this specific part that says, "This is the golden age of something good and right and real."  For the first time in my life I feel like I am in this amazing place, by no means is it perfect, but in all it's imperfections it is beautiful.  I feel like I'm exactly where I am supposed to be. A lot of that has to do with Caleb.  I am so incredibly thankful for him and his patience with my impatience.  He is amazing.  I can't believe it's been eleven months.  It still feels like yesterday that I was laying in bed wide awake going over that first conversation in my head and seeing his smile over and over again.  It was like part of me was alive again that I thought was gone forever.  

The summer before I met Caleb I was so freaked out that I was going to be 30 in less than a decade.  Seems far off I know, but at the rate time was flying it would be here in no time.  I was so panicked about it because my life was almost the exact opposite of what I was expecting it to be around that time. But now after being with Caleb he has helped me to quit being so concerned with where I thought I should be and enjoy what is happening right now because I will never get this time back again.  Just to be.  I'm 23 years old and I need to enjoy every bit of it instead of worrying about being 30 the whole time.  Life is going to happen whether I'm ready for it or not so I might as well just enjoy it, because after all, "this is the golden age of something good and right and real."