Say Something

Life can be so weird sometimes, dropping anvils on us from literally NO WHERE.  What do you do in times like that? How do you respond when there are no words and nothing in your life even came semi close to preparing you for what you've heard or found out.  It's hard.  Recently I was put on the opposite side of a situation that I never have been on before.  What do you do when someone tells you that you broke their heart when you didn't even have an inkling that you had the ability to do that in the first place.  Its a weird thing to hear.  It's also a very sensitive subject.  It's very confusing since you don't want to anything to go left unsaid, but at the same time you don't want to hurt anyone any more than you already have.  It's impossible to say anything, but also imperative that you do.  It's also not something that you can just sit on for a while until you come up with this super philosophical and heartfelt response.  You need to be quick, blunt and easy.  It's hard.  

Such is life I suppose.  It really reminds me of the song Say Something by A Great Big World and if you have yet to hear that song listen to it now.  It has so much meaning.  More than just a break up song.  It fits for every time you are at a loss for words or your situation puts everyone at a loss for words and how difficult that can be. It's just that point in any relationship where you are at a turning point.  It could literally go either way and it all depends on one person saying something, anything really.  It's the limbo that is so painful.  Not knowing what the other person is thinking but at the same time you don't know how to say what you're feeling or thinking.  What do you do or say?  It sucks.  It sucks being put in that situation, but at the same time you can't be angry or upset with the other person because they are doing what is best for them, getting it off their chest.  Letting go of it finally so they aren't the only one holding on to it.  Especially in this case, where the other person, being myself, had zero idea any of this was going on. I'm not mad for being in the middle of this.  I'm not angry either.  I don't know how to explain how I feel about it.  I'm happy for them and glad they are being honest with themselves and others, but at the same time I have no idea how we could ever go back to the way things were before all of this happened.  Its frustrating.  

Words are funny things.  They can have such little meaning or they can carry the weight of the world.  They can be static or they can be a dagger right to the heart.  How do you choose the right ones?